This blog has come a long way, almost 4 years in history. Thank you for all your supports and I am really grateful for that. If it is not for all my Fans like you, I may have quitted long time ago.
I did not realize that I need to put in extra efforts as compared to the rest. I am over-weighted and not that presentable as compared to the other bloggers. I was just like a passer-by A whom you would not notice even if I stand in front of you. I really have low-self esteemed.
And, I needed to overcome another emotional barrier. I have to write in English!
I have straight As for English during the first two years of my primary education. Life was a bed of roses then as I was the top student of the class.
When I was in primary three, my nightmare began. I am from a Chinese speaking family and my parents did not realize the importance of phonetics. Yes, I could not pronounce accurately a lot of English words at that time. And, I have Mrs Y for my English teacher for that year.
I hated it whenever I needed to attend English lesson. Mrs Y would ask me to read the English sentences. If my pronunciations are inaccurate, I would be made to stand outside the class.
There was 1 particular instance when I could not pronounce the word of “cake”. Being Chinese- educated, my parents would pronounce it as “gate” without the T sound at the end. Despite several attempts to correct my pronunciation, I would not master that little sound of “cake”.
Mrs Y finally blew her top. “Get out, Get out of the class. You useless student’” I was publicity humiliated by my English teacher.
After 2 years of torments, my English grades dropped. Needless to say, my personality changed from a confident and outspoken student to an inferior and reserved person.
Being a beauty blogger, I will need to attend events and mingle with the beauty bloggers and the PRS in the blogging industry. Most of the beauty bloggers are English educated and I tend to be intimidated by those who speak the English slang. That is why some people will perceive me as a quiet and anti-social person.
I know that I need to change if I still want to continue blogging. I start to improve myself by attending Jill Lowe image course. I brainwash myself into thinking that I am a beauty blogger. I pay attention to my dressing and I learn how to put on light make up.
My English improves gradually as I need to write every week. I realize that it is not that difficult if I am willing to face and overcome the emotional barriers in life. For this, I am currently taking one to one English pronunciation lessons at a tuition center. I dare not say that my pronunciations are 100% accurate but I am more confidence when speaking English.
Every experience in life is a gift and we should unwrap it with appreciation.
I used to blame Mrs Y but I do not see the fact that I should improve on my English pronunciation. I am grateful for this experience as it enables to be a humble and brave person.
Blogging has indeed opened up a new chapter of my life. It has moved me out of the comfort zone and transformed me into a positive person
But, I am a bit tired of this busy lifestyle as I am a part-time blogger who has dedicated all my weekends time for blogging. It’s hectic and I find out that I am missing out a lot of things in life. All I know is blogging, blogging and blogging. Basically, it is rushing for the dateline as the PRS are always chasing after me for the advertorial blog posts.
Eventually, I am drained out. I just wish to get my life back. Prior to participating in the Omy blog Awards, I already wish to quit but the award winning blogger cum my mentor, Grace Tan of http://workingwithgrace.wordpress.com/ has encouraged me to continue to blog.I persist on but I seldom update my blog as often as before.
Although this time I do not get in as a finalist for the blog awards, I will still like to thank Grace and the blog club members for their guidance and support.
Oh Yeah, please vote for my BFF 01, Steven Lek for the individual blog category and Simon Chan for the New Blog Category at this link: http://sgblogawards.omy.sg/2014/.
As for me, I will be changing my lifestyle and preparing for the next stage of my life. I will be learning things of my interests and spending more time with my family and friends.
I will like to end off this article by saying that “It has been a remarkable blogging journey because of you but good things will come to an end. It’s time for me to move on and embark on a more fulfilling life. Farewell, adieu till we meet again, I wish all of you happy and prosperous.”